Have you ever felt so overwhelmed that your problems seemed insurmountable? If you are like me, you have experienced at some point in your life a great deal of pain, anxiety, or depression with no light at the end of the tunnel. There is good news here though. This is typically where many of us find the good Lord Jesus, and you can find Him right now, today, in this very moment. May you find Him now.

I am writing this blog as a newfound Christian. In fact, there was a time in my life where I did not believe there was a god, and I ridiculed those who did. I lived this way for many of my teenage years and much of my early twenties. I attempted to fill the void with everything you could think of and quickly found myself in the ruts of a heroin addiction. I always felt an overwhelming pain inside of me that nothing seemed to fix. I used everything you can think of to escape the way I felt about myself. I used relationships, sex, drugs, alcohol, money, shopping, working, and so much more to kill the pain but always came up short. I started attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and was told that, “When the pain of doing nothing begins to outweigh the pain of making a change, we change.”

On December 6, 2019, I checked myself into a medical detox center to beat my heroin addiction. The following days would be the most difficult days of my life. I found myself in the worst physical, mental, and emotional pain I have ever felt to this very day. Yet, for the first time in my life, I had no escape. I decided that I would try something different. I did something so unthinkable, so outrageous, that never in a million years would I have believed I would do:

I started praying.

I remember exactly what I prayed for; I told God that I would be willing to do whatever it took, that I would seek Him with all of my heart and would leave no stone unturned. I told God that I knew He had a plan for me in my life, and I asked Him to make me ready to see it through.

December 6th was the last day that I ever did heroin. Today, I have helped more than 600 people overcome their battles with addiction and alcoholism.

While the last 4 years of my life have been filled with many trials and tribulations, what amazes me the most is that when I look back on everything I have been through, I can see that Jesus has been with me the whole time, and it was through His power alone that I am standing on a strong foundation today.

Jesus is the only solid foundation that does not change and does not falter. The scripture says in Matthew 11:28, “Come to me ... I will give you rest.” And Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans that I have for you.” This gives me hope that no matter how deep of a hole it feels like I am in, God has a plan for me. The greatest blessings in my life have literally fallen in my lap as a result of doing the next right thing, and keeping my focus on the cross.

The rest and hope I’ve found at the cross can be yours too. Join me in seeking Him with all your heart.

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